A few days ago I made the oh so tough decision to step outside my comfort zone and sign up for *shockgasphorror* online dating. Whether this was a good decision has yet to be decided.
No. I lied. It was a good decision, but not due to the glorious reults of my ‘matches’. Talking with several guys over the last few days who are interested in getting to know me based on a photo and 5 sentences about my likes has opened my eyes to just how hard it is to find true love in today’s times.
Does anyone out there have a romantic heart these days? Bueller?
4 days have passed. I have recieved messages from a total of 15 different guys close enough to my home town to make things ‘work.’ Where a few seem normal and have dating potential (meaning 2), most of them open with a very endearing line like: “Your eyes are so sexy, I’d like to fuck you all night long.” (yes, that is an actual quote from one of my ‘matches’.) *sigh* Swoon my heart… or try not to dry heave too much over the laptop.
All of this focus on dating/relationships/men has made me wonder, do any guys out there still feel the need to woo a girl, or are dating sites merely a playground for horny pervs just looking for a lonely, easy girl to get with. I do believe that there are some good hearted men out there who really do want something real and lasting, but with my experience this week it seems as if I am unlikely to find a man like that of my own through such means. No matter how hard I try to change my heart, I want a man who will blow me away with the little things.
Even at age 25, I still hold hope in my heart that Disney didn’t totally lie to me as a kid, that love is capable of building a bridge over the ocean, melting the heart of an ice queen or even making magic possible.
The solution: don’t go seeking love. If there is a man out there for me, then I trust the universe that our paths will collide and he’ll be man enough to step up and meet me half way. Its not just a boyfriend or a ‘man’ I’m looking for, its a friend who will be my partner and confidon. I am a relationship girl, not a casual dating one. Hopefully Mr. “I wanna fuck you all night long” will find what he’s looking for… but it will not be with me.
It is always good to take yourself out of your comfort zone and try something new. Doors don’t open by themselves; they also don’t quench the curiosity if left unopened.